October 2011
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Alone and beating myself up.
Some days I feel like just curling in bed and crying. Weep for all the would’ve should’ve could’ve, and fall asleep. And then meet the new day with renewed vigour. Draw energy from the past to fuel my steps.
Sigh.
Actually, I just feel like a hugeass failure from the knowledge that my stupid cold turkey didn’t work out. Apparently, a month of not meeting up, talking very...
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I drive people away right? I think I do. I have friends, yes, but I can never seem to hold them close. I used to be better at this, I know, but somewhere, somehow, I seem to have lost it.
I feel like I’m back in Primary school, where I’m always the odd one out, the one who got picked last, the one in the outer circle, the third wheel, whatever. I feel so left out. ):